A summary of the past

This picture was taken this last June. So as of 2013, I am nineteen years old. I know people don't believe me but I really am this age(everyone thinks I am older or either younger)! I go by Bobette or Bobi online but that isn't my real name. I go by this "art" name online for privacy reasons. Some years before I became who I am I have had problems with being harassed by people. What I mean is, I'd let people step all over me and I would be at their mercy. Anyway, I really had this problem when I entered high school, I was cyber stalked and real-life stalked by a school mate. So it begins, I am at this local private school (very few students) and I befriend this guy called "Casey" (name has been changed) we were just "friends" but then it eventually became more than friends. He'd text me and private message me on websites often, but it got to where it was overboard. He'd interrogate me about things I was doing. He would get angry if I didn't reply back right away and he would also accuse me of cheating on him. (He had parents that cheated on each other). Also, at school, he'd call me fat but he would claim that he was just "playing". His parents were from up North and moved down here in the South which meant he had no Southern accent. He'd often mock everyone's speech and he'd often mock mine. The word he would make fun of me saying in particular was the word "while". He also go on and on about my appearance putting it down and he would say stuff like "You don't have to worry about me liking you for your appearance." And he would name all the flaws I had in my body. He'd rant about my weight and I got to where I didn't eat my lunch at school. It was weird b/c he never brought his lunch. I was a little shorter at the time but taller than alot of the girls at school but he'd call me "shortie" alot. He was WAY taller than me. He was 6'1 and 13/14 years old. He'd also go on implying that everyone except him hated me at school and he was my only friend. He said he used to be popular but everyone now hated him for hanging around me. I wasn't allowed to talk to other guys without his permission and there were some chicks I was forbidden to say anything to. It got that bad. I even gave some of my passwords to him b/c he insisted saying "You shouldn't have anything to hide from me, we really need to trust each other." He would put down my taste in music. He only EXCLUSIVELY listened to Slipknot and other related crap. He would also talk sexist, racist, and bash gays 24/7. He also claimed he was a "good Christian boy". Y'all, I was young and dumb back then! And I told NO adult about this at all. I had relatives that were at the school, they knew bad things were going on, but none of them didn't do anything about it. He'd even interrogate other students about me asking if I did anything with anyone. He gave me a hard time about a youtube I had with my dancing. He'd vent to me about his family disputes and I made the mistake about telling him some of my dirty laundry and inform him of the disputes I have had with my parents. Well eventually, my mother and one of my siblings found out about this. My mother was close to tying me down so she could interrogate me. There are TONS of details to this story I can't fit on here. She went to his dad, teachers, and principle about the situation. She made sure he didn't talk to me at all at school. I had to block him on everything online and she blocked his cell number from calling me. But a week after this, he tried bothering me again at school and I told a teacher but nothing was done. I told my mother at the house and later, I saw where he hacked an account (I used a same psswrd that I had given him) and harassed me some more. We had copies of all the things he told me online, and she told me to give them to his dad when I saw him ( the dad was my teacher at the time). His dad apologized and everything was fine after awhile. But he still would spread rumors about me to others and he would make dramatic sounds every time we accidentally crossed paths at school. He would roar "freak" or "GOSH" or he would just simply loudly huff and puff and incorporate some dramatically disgusted arm movements. This went on for a year or so. I'd often go out of my own way just to avoid him. I didn't want others knowing my business if he were to do that. Finally, it got worse in my junior year. His dad was gone so he wasn't on the reins anymore. He would come up to a table I was sitting at and tell the girls "Don't talk to that freak" he also bothered a classmate of mine and his girlfriend. He also gained him some "minions" that backed him up. I told my mother and her and the other parents complained to the school about it. The school board finally suspended him. There are many things I could have mentioned about but I don't want this to be any longer than it already is. I still have the most tragic nightmares about this. Always have since the beginning and I fear I won't be able to stop. There are just things that will come up and trigger the memory. I have learned to let go some of it but the other half, I haven't quite yet. I feel so bad my mom had get involved, she was going through enough things already. I have learned a lot from it but I fear something similar will happen again or worse. I have watched some of the Investigation Discovery Channel and it makes me scared to a certain degree at night sometime. He never physically abused me but he would have if this crap continued longer. It was more of an emotional manipulation he'd do to me. This experience also helped me find red flags in people now. Online and in real life. I also don't give my passwords to people anymore xD The events I have told of took place way before I took up music and singing. These activities have played an important role for me afterwards I guess that about wraps it up! I apologize about this being too lengthy! Peace and Love everyone! Have a great week y'all!